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November 26, 2007

Is there a way I can exhibit my boredom?

Like this?

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Or this?

November 20, 2007

Are we looking at the wrong directions of our lives?

Occasions like these, I ask myself if the paths I am taking in life are right, but like seriously, who is to define what is right and what is wrong with my life? Choosing to not do well in Alevels, landed me in SIM. SIM? It is the degree that I get out of the course. I am really suspicious of how far it can bring me. Nageb told us even a second upper class is inadequate, so why am I wasting time here studying and slogging away for a degree that is not backing my future? I am just very unsure of everything at this point of life. What did I land myself into? Joining of SRC and taking up more tuitions. This should not be the way or is it?

Mounting these thoughts, I have been waking up almost everyday in tremor. Forgetting what day it is, what I have to do for the day. So imagine every morning, I will open my eyes and see sunlight, sending me to a frantic search of the time and recalling what day it is, if I have morning lessons or work that I missed. It is NOT a very nice way to start my day. I go to bed in fear that I did not set my alarm at the right time, and I wake up in fear that I did not set my alarm right the night before. UH HUH..

I cannot even do things as well as I did in the past. Those that I used to be so proud of, and would not hesitate to taunt anyone with the fact that I am good at it. But I just lost it. Where did my confidence go?

Can someone tell me what is wrong with me??

Or did anyone hear me?

November 16, 2007

我会慢慢慢慢的离开让感情没办法负荷而停下来不知不觉流向大海谁也找不回来
全世界只有你不懂我爱你

November 15, 2007

Maybe I should spend some time blogging all over again

This (blogging) is not in my schedule for the night. Check mail, file IBM notes, do IBM framework, edit budget proposal, sleep. But this place is so empty!! And I should stop acting nonchalant and start blogging!

Anyway, I had a terrific week! Birthday season = Slacking week. Endless celebrations, never ending appointments! Thank you everyone who celebrated with me/remembered my birthday! =)) If I were to do a thank you list I dunno when it will end!

Q.s.s mates - i love the present, the cake and the effort of getting a reservation and all!!! REALLY! Green was not really my color but it has grown into me for the past few days! So NOWAY I am exchanging it for any other color! sweeann! GOOD TASTE! =DD Xiaoyan, for planning, I really appreciate! Jon and Ian the brownie cake was fabulous!! *KISSES* Elvin, SA, Jeff, Thank you for waiting with me!! Chuan~ ^^ YuanCHING!!~ SO YOU THINK YOU IN DALIAN BIG LA! DON'T HAVE TO COME FOR MY BDAE CELEBRATION LA?! SHOULD HAVE THE COURTESY TO BUY A TICKET AND COME BACK TO CELEBRATE FOR THE NIGHT OKAY? muahahaha. *i love you*

Tigger,WeiMing.Jace,Em,Pam - AWWWW... SO SWEET!!!

Tigger - 3 days in a row. you love me too much don't you? LOVE YOU TOO!

WeiMing - I AM SO TOUCHED!!! even till now! Hurry become a sergeant then you can buy me everything I want!!! *evillll...*

Bestie Mel - hey! The call was not cheap! Anyway, birthday does not seem the same without our usual birthday dinner.

Buddy (Darren) - You are so talented you know!!

Kent - THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! a BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU =DDD

Mum,Dad - Thank you for your contribution hahahaha...

Lenice,Wanty - Beautiful music.love the cd!!

Gaxiao - eh eh eh!! you rich kid! Thank you for the shirt though I kinda made you pay hahaha! *huggs*

God papa - Thank you for making time and the pressieee!!! =)))

Ben,Karen - l0veeeeeee...... =D

All Who remembered - MUCH THANKS!

Time to catch up with my neglected work. IBM, SOCIOLOGY, ECONOMICS, MATH, STATS!

Did I mention how much I adore you? Did I mention how much I want to see you? Did I mention? Did I mention? Or can you feel?

If you were here... =((